i'm bored.
bored.
bored.
bored.
& i'm supposed to be sleeping lyk now.
& these freaking ants got nth else better to do.

i've learnt smth impt.
smth i will nvr forget.
& i'm going to keep it with me for lyf.
i will try my best to keep it with me.
sry everyone if i have done anything which has hurt ur feelings..

freaking history script!
in the end dun nid to do!
damnn!
seeee laa..
do during tamil class & yesterday so wasted!
alamak!
then ififif i nvr do history,
IT could've been prevented..
ffreak!
& tt freaking thing had to burn me somemore..
argh! STREZ!
nvm.
friendster's dead ):
nvm.
there's maths test nxt week
& the week after next
& the week after tt.
GREAT!
all meant for me to fail ryt?
i dont want to fail.
not again.
nvr.i shall do smth.
if i fail.

sch's opened.
barbie doll (:
love ya loadsa!
nice photos.
off to do smth impt.

went to nandy's hse yesterday
to do neithal hw!
i'm a nalla pillai (:
& we went pasar malam
bought PINK pencil case
& a few earrings
& PINK nail polish
watched kuruvi songs (:
& went back home
presently, my homeworks are done ((:
but not properly done.
touch-ups to be done later..
hehes!

Read and understand the instructions below before attempting this quiz.If you scored more than 30, I strongly recommend some counselling! If you scored more than 20, you’re paranoid. If you scored more than 10, you’re normal. If you scored less than 10, you’re fearless. If you scored 0, you’re full of crap. After you’re done, check if you are absolutely normal or need counselling.

I fear…

[ ] The dark (sometimes depending on the situation)
[x] Staying alone forever
[ ] Being a parent (depends on the character of your child)
[ ] Giving birth
[ ] Being myself in front of others
[ ] Open spaces
[ ] Heights
[x] Black cats
[ ] Big hairy arses
Total so far: 2

[ ] Birds
[ ] Fish
[ ] Spiders
[ ] Flowers or other plants
[ ] Being touched
[ ] Fire
[x] Deep water
[x] Lakes
[ ] Silk
[x] The ocean
Total so far: 5

[x] Failure
[ ] Success
[ ] Thunder/Lightning
[ ] Frogs/Toads
[ ] My boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s dad
[ ] My boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s mum
[ ] Mice/Rats
[ ] Jumping from high places
[ ] Snow
[ ] Rain
Total so far: 6
[ ] Wind
[ ] Crossing hanging bridges
[x] Death (who doesn't?)
[ ] Heaven
[ ] Being robbed
[ ] Falling (depends on what kind of fall)
[ ] Clowns
[ ] Large crowds of people
[ ] Guys
[ ] Women
Total so far: 7

[ ] Having great responsibilities
[ ] Doctors, including dentists
[x] Tornadoes
[x] Hurricanes
[x] Incurable diseases
[ ] Venomous snakes
[ ] Sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] Ghosts
[x] Poverty
Total so far: 11

[ ] Halloween
[ ] School
[ ] Trains
[ ] Odd numbers
[ ] Even numbers
[ ] Being alone
[x] Becoming blind
[x] Becoming deaf
[ ] Growing up (sometimes the future could be scary)
[ ] Monsters under your bed
Total so far: 13

[x] Creepy noises in the night
[ ] Bee stings (if it kills me)
[x] Not accomplishing my goals/dreams
[ ] Needles (depending on the size of the needle)
[ ] Penis (?!)
Total: 15

weeeee!!! i'm normal! (:

Tagged by: Jacqueline (:

1. At what age do you wish to get married?
duno

2. Study hard or play hard?
both. study hard & play hard (:

3. Who is the person you trust the most?
myself (:

4. Why do you think you have not enough confidence?
blur blur & not sure of things

5. If you have a dream come true, what would you want it to be?
world peace (:

6. What is your idea of a bf or gf?
someone who is loving, caring, fun & honest!

7. What is your goal for this year?
take the subjects i want and get good grades!

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
depends..

9. If you spend all the time in the world but no money, what would you do?
???

10. If time were to unwind, what would you change?
nothing. everything u did in past is beacause u rly wanted it to happen, so dont regret it.

11. Which period of the time made you want to break down?
separation, drifting ):

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
drifting

13. Do you cherish all of the friendships you have?
YES!

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
depends..

15. What do you think is the most important things in your life?
loadsa things

16. Who do you want to always behind you?
those who want to.

17. People who are going to hated you?
dunno

18. Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
pretty, nice, great, fun, responsible (:

19. How many percent do you think you are in front of your friends?
i dont rly care, i dunno if they do..

20. Would you judge an adversary you do not know well?
nope

Instruction :
Remove one question from the above and add in your personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them at the end of the post. Notify them at their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tags will have blessings from all.

not going to remove any qn (:

gonna pass the quiz to:
- nanthini
- harshaana
- huiling
- siying
- yuanyun
- johanna
- casmelin

went to jurong swimming pool again
with my cuzzies :)
played for 1h plus
so short, unlce had to go for flight or smth
aunty bought pizza & KFC for us
(:
romba nandri aunty!
jurong swimming pool rly very nice la..
yesterday went for dental appointment at tampines.
snipped off the extra wire at the back,
mummy bought a new blouse for me :)
hehes..
hw left to do ):
haiyo!!!!!!!!!!
stupid!
must go do!

sunday was ultimate movie day.
first watched pathri
then vallavan
then charlie and the chocolate factory
& then i watched incredible tales :)
BLOODY MARY! BLOODY MARY! BLOODY MARY!
hehes!

yesterday was another movie day :)
went to JB to watch movie
DASAAVATHARAM!
different storyline, but quite nice
kamal hassan(the actor) acts in 10 different roles.
& there's some synthetic thingy which is some virus
when released into the air kills millions of ppl
& the thing which stops it is NaCl, seawater
then when the person eats the vial in which the virus is in,
a great tsunami comes so as to prevent millions of ppl from dying
but ppl still do die frm the tsunami.
the story abt the 12th century was nice
the one in which he was tied to raaman and thrown into the sea.
after movie went to restaurant to makan.
a lil shopping & back home
then went home
& watched santhosh subramaniyam.
nice moive :)
weeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
then went to sleep,
couldnt sleep, listen to mp3 til 12am plus..
haha, boredom.
school's going to start soon!
hahas
nvm la. i miss things & ppl.
):

i was bored yesterday morning.
so i resorted to doing things which kept me occupied.
& it was damn retarded (:
anyways i went to the airport yesterday
to send off one akka
i soo miss terminal 2!
everytym go to tt retarded budget terminal ):
nvm. i can see planes!
PLANES! PLANES! PLANES!
teehee..
i have a few retarded photos.
i shall post them here.
it shows my retardedness yesterday, due to my boredom.
PS: I know tt i am retarded, you dont need to tell me (:












tt's the end of the retarded photos.
actually, there's more
but u might alr have thought of me as super retarded, so i MUST stop (:
hehes!

his story is about a boy and a man who has a dream of becoming world's top astronaut in this small island of Singpoare and aims to be the first astronaut to fly into space, representing our nation. They had this dream at age 8, and were discouraged by their teachers and parents that such things were beyond control and we should not aim so high, otherwise the downfall will be great- too much impact on you to allow you to climb up again. One of them believed and gave up the idea of having such unrealistically-deemed thoughts, the other still held on to his own belief. So, these two boys parted their way and one went on with paperwork, chasing certificates, awards and for a better portfolio- attend jc, then university. The other went through his astronaut course at the astronaut school, turning out to be one of the first, completed his course. A few years later, the paperwork chaser switched on the television, broadcasting the live broadcast of the astraunaut preparing to take off. this time- he saw was his friend; the background called out "Honey, ready for dinner". RAINBOW life is one where you chase your own ambition your dream, MONOCHROME life is where you are forced and goes along with a stereotypical citizen to chase after paperworks, finishing their courses. so, why not lead a RAINBOW life- (this idea is copyrighted and is going on with their filimngs and production) do not copy. RAINBOW/MONOCHROME, choose yours. Even though such thoughts seem immature, to think so far, why not think what colorful life you should lead- instead of the lowly paid salary working as part of someone's dream. Start out your own dream- don't be part of other's building dream

found it on blogskin hunt (:
rainbow lyf ((:))

Jurong Swimming Pool is nice :)
Lake Holme Condo is damn damn nice
super nice view outside
high class!
nice auntie gave us chocolates frm UK! (:
i love chocolates!
& she gave us a ferrero rocher*dunnohowtospell*
(:
watched benji the hunter on disney channel just now
it's damn nice!
abt a dog who takes care of courgars
whose mother was killed by a human
the dog takes lots of trouble to protect the cubs
& finally he brings them tgt with the father of the cubs (:
nicenice movie!
i learn how to LOVE! (:

EDIT: the post on the chalet has been FINALLY edited :)
&& i LOVE nanthini LOADS!
((((((((((((((((:))))))))))))))))))))

hello((:
I love nanthini's blogskin and i love chocolatemilktea!
I also love 2308 and I love myself.
So people learn how to love.
Its the greatest gift.
LOVE.

lala
lala
lala
lala
i dont want to care
but i must care
cos i want to care
& i cant just leave it liddat..
u wrote it in the sand, i think of it everyday,
drifting apart..
):

hello(:
i am a good girl but
i forgot to update.
so i will do that when i am free.
Nanthini is very normal.
(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIVARRANJANI!

headache.
blog abt today later/tmr.

EDIT:
okay, now i shall write what happened.
met siva&dhurga at LJS
went to interchange..
hung ard for a while, saw nisa.
took 859 bus to sunplaza
sat down thr, bored.
prank called *ahems*
nisa say he damn cute damn loud
dhurga & i also can hear..
hahas..
then met lava
& then gini
they went dunowhere
we went into mac & played ard for a while
haha
with the coins
then gini&lava came, they bought sattae for siva (:
then we share $ bought meals
feeding one another with burgers & fries
was damn damn fun (:
lava cannot go sembawang park, so we nvr go
then we bus-ed back to yishun interchange where we bid farewell to gini & lava
then, nisa, dhurga, siva & i went to toilet, where they camwhored.
then we took 804 to yishun park
& played on the swings
dhurga & i went up tt thingy lyk monkeys
but i had a bit of probs coming down la
but it was ok la (:
swings are love!
then we took 804 back to interchange
then anisa took bus back hme
siva,dhurga & i took 800 back hme
bid farewell & got down at bus-stop & bought chocolate frm shop.





i'm very sorry.
i think i changed a lot.
i dunno y.
i dont like the new me, i think i suck.
i want back the old me, the nice, fun, bubbly me.
not the sucky, stuckup me. it just sucks.
i want myself back. please?
& i might have pissed u ppl off, i very X595848385 sorry.
SORRY.

46 words

Speed test

the other post ryt, i shall do smth abt it..
so difficult to read!
& i still nvr finish posting & the interesting parts are after this!
:)
& u are well now!! (((:)))
we are going to meet tmr!
(((((:))))

EDITED (:

nandy invited me over for chalet @ changi!
so, i went on saturday :)
daddy dropped me @ tampines & nanthini+sathya+dhinesh and their father came to fetch us

Day 1

Then while we were on the way back, trying to find place to u-turn, nandy's aunt called, then we turned back & went to fetch her auntie. Only gaya3 akka & kavishree could get in. Then dhinesh was compressed to the bottom cos he wanted to be compressed!
It was in CHANGI! Rings a bell? No? nvm.

Nandy showed me the room upstairs. I left my bag there. THe boys were very enthu to show us a 'ghostly' shuttlecock cos it was floating out of nowhere in the open. Then they brought us there to show us. I could clearly see a string hanging from the tree to which the shuttle cock was tied to! hahas! so much for the 'ghostly' shuttlecock. But it's still weird ok? cos the string was tied quite high up.
She put black shiny nail polish for me on my toenails!

then we went to the beach.. It was evening, so it was high tide la.. Then we stood there for a while. After tt, we went back hme.. The adults were there alr.

The BBQ-ing started. The insides were not cooked but then it was very chewy! :) hahas! It was quite dark & there was lots of smoke, soot & fire. My face might have gotten blacker. Then us, children gathered to play concentration, was damn fun la, we kept saboing each other. Nandy & I kept saboing both the brothers & then we kept winning :) We also played heart attack!
After which we played musical chairs. Every round, the ppl who got out had to do forfeit. Nandy's paati had to do catwalk. Nandy had to act as some olden day actress. Nandy's father had to do facial expression. The maid had to do some dance to the athiradee music frm sivaji & it was damn power la! damn nice! Nandy saboed me to do classical dance & I did abt 2 steps.. hahas! Then my brother had to act like manhunt & he kept laughing like some kuku.. hahas! gayathri akka had to act like thrisha.. sathya was the winner & he ran ard the hse cos he did not want to be maantha vaanguraaned. The aunty said some thingys & then gave him present :a roll of toilet paper. :) but then the actual present was a set of stationery la.. Paathi gave it to him la..

Then the uncle gave us a few interesting tricks to do. It invovled strings & matchsticks. How to tie a knot with the string w/o letting go of the edge. Then the 10 trick & the dustbin, kuppai trick. There was also move the can through the hole in the tissue.

Finally, he asked for volunteers for a string trick. Nandy & I volunteered. Then he took the string & tied both nandy's hands & took another string & put it thru nandy's string & tied my hands then he asked us to separate frm each other.. We tried to separate for damn long. We did all kinds of nonsense, thru head, leg & a bit of hand & yet we couldnt figure out how to get out. A lot of ppl wanted to help us but they didnt know also. While we were figuring out, the children were playing treasure hunt. Then we asked the uncle to help us. He helped us on a condition. He showed us how the trick was done & it was quite easy la, it was just using the hands. But what we did included a lot of twisting & turning & the head & leg & body movement & all we could do was hug! hahas! Then after we were out, it was sleeping time. We slept at like 2am plus. Then we woke up at 4.30am to see sunrise but we were not allowed to go ): Then we went back to sleep.

Day 2

we woke up at 9.30am. After changing, we went down, had breakfast & went to the nearby beach. The water was now so different. We stood there for a while. Then nandy's father drove us to Changi Beach. The beach was like soo eeeeww! There was seaweed at the shore. We slowly went inside & all we could feel was seaweed & more seaweed. But it was ok la.. Then we made mountain using the sand. We cleared one part of the beach frm the seaweed. Then we saw starfish & many nicenice seashells & sangus! Then we went into the water & played. There were planes flying overhead. Damn cool & each time we saw a plane approaching, we would be like PLANE! PLANE!

typical children like us. then we go deeper & deeper
at one part the sand very soft & fine, so we nvr go inside somemore..
hahas, scary lar!
then we left & went back hme.
we walked to the chalet & we were making plans
we crossed a bridge where we are not supposed to ride bicycle
& it had a story behind it..
hahas, damn cool la..
went to watch planes
drove past old changi hospital. the boys were scared la
the building damn cool can?
old, eerie, creepy, vandalised.. hahas
then on the way back saw the aunty at the way towards changi hospital.
she say she saw an old man with red tshirt at the top of the building and he disapeared all of a sudden. She also saw flickering lights.
Then she came back and shared these stories with us. She is a nurse, so she shared other stories with us too!
got many different hospital stories, nandy got post on her blog, go see (:
then we ate french toast (:
played badminton for a while
hit the danlging shuttlecock with the badminton rackets
got tired of it &
we went to the beach
& wrote raaman seetaiyai kadathikondu poonan
& challenged the waves to wipe it away
it took damn long la
it was high tide at tt tym, so the waters were quite unpredictable.
it kinda erased it off la..
then left the beach, went back to chalet
then it was time for me to leave..
packed up & went hme
ENJOYED THE TRIP LOADS!
THANKS NANDY!
LOVE YOU LOADS! (:

:(
:)
(:
):
lalas..
going to go soon!
happy.
but sad for you.
tuesday, hope i can come.
mummy, pls let me go!
i didnt ask u yet!
haha
but pls pls pls let me go!
pls pls pls pls!
(:)
):(
(:)
):(
ok, i have come to a conclusion
CONCLUSION: Vinesha Pillai has gone madand has to be admitted to Woodbridge.

nvm.
as long as u get well soon, it's ok
i'll be very happy if u get well.
& start talking..
i want to exchange with u
i dont mind, u see?
get well SOON!
pls?

yay! i can see you tmr!
no, i mean later,
at 12pm!
:)
hehes!
romba paesaathae!
& u better come for siva burfdae!
:)
ILY!

TTS SUCKS!
FREAK TT BLOODY DOCTOR!
FREAK!
FREAK!
FREAK!
DUNNO HOW TO INSERT TUBE.
GO TEAR PPL TISSUE
THEN..
THEN..
NVM! FREAK TT BLOODY DOCTOR!

i am supposed to tell this yesterday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUILING!

pls be ok?

aiyo, see la pandi
nvr stay online for longer,
ran away to read book!
can stay for longer right?
aiyo! aiyo! nvm!
but u are damn sweet la!
ILY too! :)

WHY?
WHY?
WHY MUST GOD HAVE CHOSEN U AMONG AL PEOPLE?
BEING THE NICEST,LOVING, FRIENDLY AND CARING PERSON..
U DONT DESERVE THIS STUPID SEEKU LA
I DONT MIND IF I HAD GOTTEN IT LA
Y MUST IT BE U?
YEN? YEN? YEN?
ENAKU IRUNTHAALUM NVM,
BUT UNAKU..
CANNOT LA.. CANNOT
IT'S JUST SOOO UNFAIR
THAT U MUST HAVE IT LA..
CANT EVERYBODY JUST BE PERFECT?
WHY MUST HE GIVE PPL ILLNESS?
ARGH!
CANNOT DA, CANNOT.
I REALLY LOVE YOU DA..
& U CANT GET SICK.
& SHOULDNT GET SICK.
BECAUSE, U ARE RLY VERY NICE DA..
U JUST DONT DESERVE IT.
REALLY!
U ARE JUST TOO GOOD DA
AIYO! AIYO!
JUST BE OKAY LA..
ALWAYS!
& I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU..
DONT WORRY..
U JUST DONT DESERVE IT!!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG
YOU WILL BE OK!
I LOVE YOU
NOTHING WILL HAPPEN TO YOU
I LOVE YOU
YOU WILL BE OK
NO NEED TO DO ANYTHING
YOU WILL BE WELL.
NOT _________
NO NEED TO DO ANY ___________
HOPE YOU ARE WELL
TMR..
I SHALL CALL YOU
PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS
BE OK!
ILY!


















DHURGA IS LOVED!

Last words you said out loud?
> u can find la
Who is your favorite family member?
> all?
Have you ever drove over a squirrel?
> no car
Have you ever cursed at your parents?
> dunno
Ever intentionally made a sibling cry?
> yesh, cos i knocked him, i was angry la
Have you stolen candy from a kid?
> does it count if i stole frm my bro?
Ever played a senior prank?
> nopes
Have you ever wanted to be a doctor?
> yesh! & i still want to!
Did you wear glasses?
> i did, do & will, it will nvr leace me :(
Did you ever call someone with glasses "4 eyes"?
> no, but i am coled tt by my kuku uncle..
Is your favorite food macaroni and cheese?
> eeeww.. i dont like!
What's your shoe size?
> 5/6, my foot is small :(
Do you have any pets?
> nope.
What's your dream date?
> ..
Does your boyfriend/girlfriend have red hair?
> never had one! :)
Are you allergic to grass?
> nope.
Do you eat tomatoes?
> ??
How old are you?
> 14years 2 mths
Do you live with your parents?
> yesh!
Can you see the future?
> can ah?
What superpower do you wish you had?
> go back into the past
Whats on your mind?
> no air!
What was your favorite year of high school?
> dunno
where we're at now hme??
Can you juggle?
> nope!
Whats your favorite color to wear?
> Black!
Do you have a brother?
> yeah.
Are you a rebel or rule follower?
> ?
Do you cry often?
> hmm..
Can you whistle?
> er.. sometimes..
Are you attractive?
> wth. NO!
Ever egged someone's house?
> egged?
What are your views on going to college?
> yesh! must go!
Do you know any single parents?
> er.. dun think so..
What vehicle do you drive?
> i dont drive.
What was the gas price last time you filled up?
> I DONT DRIVE!
What is your job title?
> student.
Do you live in an apartment?
> yesh! i'm not rich, u noe?
Is your bed made right now?
> yesh!
Would you say you are independent?
> think so!
Do any of your friends annoy the crap out of you?
> y be friends with ppl who annoy u? =P
What last made you cry?
> nth, but i cried.. hahas!
Who is the last person you saw crying?
> ??
Last time you had sex?
> never!
Do you read celebrity gossip magazines?
> no!
Last time you washed your car?
> no car of my own!
When you are home alone what do you do for entertainment?
> use com, chat on fone, watch tv, dance, sing, sleep.. got a lot of possibilities!

i nvr do my hw yet!
damn!
I MUST START ON HW!
swings are fun!
but they cause me headaches..
i dont care
swings are DAMN fun!
:)

Message: EASY:
1.Will you answer every question honestly?
-yesh!
2.Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high?
-nopes!
3.Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
-yesh!
4.Do you miss anything or anyone?
-yesh!
5.Friends?
- = love!
6.Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 9 hours?
-nope
7. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- forgot
8.What do you dislike at the moment?
- feeling bored.
9.Name one person on your top friends who is the most like you?
- dunno
HARDER:
1.Do you get butterflies around the gals/guys you like?
-err…
2.Do you think it is bad to have sex at your age?
-bad & unnecessary.
3.Will you get married?
-yesh!
4.Will you be having sex in the near future?
-nope
5.Do you lie about your age?
-nope
1.whu do u miss nw
- hmm..
2.Are you happy with yourself?
-yes.
3.Would you change yourself for the person you love?
-dunno
4. what do you tell yourself when times get hard?
-it's be ok?
1.When did you last cry?
-saturday night/sunday early morning
2.Do you believe in religion?
-yesh!
3.When was the last time you fell in love with a guy?
-dunno
4.What is the last lie you told your parents?
-going to buy srp stuff.. shhh..
5.Did you ever wish a close friend to die?
-NEVER!
6.Has a guy ever seriously punched you more than once?
-nope
7.Have you ever made out until you ran out of breath?
-nope
8.Do you think you were ever in love?
- dont think so..
9. How many people have you liked before,but they did not like you back?
-none. :)
10. Why did they not like you back?
-?
11. Do you regret anything?
loads
SHOCKING:
1.Have you ever dated your friend’s ex?
-NO!
2.Have you done bad things with your parents near by?
-dunno!

bored. bored. bored.

blogger is kuku today
& i like tt pink clip!
thanks akka!
:)
& i was bored again,
lyk every day la..
but i think i should start on hw alr..
2nd week alr..
quite fast even it has been painfully boring..
hahas
i think i can come! :)

vinesha is happy tt she got things
but not happy with the things she got,
but overall, she is happy
because there are ppl out there who do not get things
& i did
so, i should be happy!
& thus, smile! :)
iwanttogo,plsletmego!
plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls
plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls
plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls
plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls
plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls
pls X95739584739579
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

i've got 3 different song lyrics to post:
-> open wounds by skillet
-> no air by jordin sparks feat chris brown
-> bye bye by mariah carey

Open Wounds



In the dark with the music on
Wishing I was somewhere else
Taking all your anger out on me, somebody help
I would rather rot alone
Then spend a minute with you
I'm gone, I'm gone

And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

[Chorus]
How could you, how could you, how could you hate me?
When all I ever wanted to be was you?
How could you, how could you, how could you love me?
When all you ever gave me were open wounds?

Downstairs the enemy sleeps
Leaving the TV on
Watching all the dreams we had turn into static
Doesn't matter what I do
Nothing's gonna change
I'm never good enough

And you can't stop me from falling apart
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault

[Chorus]

Tell me why you broke me down and betrayed my trust in you
I'm not giving up, giving in when will this war end?
When will it end??

You can't stop me from falling apart [3X]
'Cause my self-destruction is all your fault.

[Chorus]

This song is about a abusive parent that is treating his child very badly, which leads to the child's insanity: "You cant stop me from falling apart, because my self destruction is all your fault."
poor child.. came across thing song & i kinda liked it.. haha..


No air by jordin sparks feat chris brown



Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
If there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

Bye Bye by mariah carey



This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters,
brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause
we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why i didn't show up sometimes
on sunday mornings and i miss you
But im glad we talked through
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
face to face

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As..time..goes..by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye, Bye Bye, Bye Bye [ 3x ] ) Bye bye

And you never got the chance to
see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave
me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As.. time.. goes.. by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [ 3x ] ) The hardest thing to do is say bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters,
brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause
we will never say bye ...bye

[ Chorus ]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As.. time.. goes.. by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the world to see your face
And I'm right here right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

& i'm done!

After much thinking,
i decided that i did something
wrong, but i am not naughty!

I apologise sincerely!

From now onwards i am
going to live life with
optimism!(:
I am gonna show 'them'
who i am and what
i am really capable of!

I AM GOING TO STRIVE!

i did do smth which i'm not supposed to do..
but am i naughty?
dunno..
btw, the other post was by..
evil nanthini..
haha

Hello! I am craving 4 chocolate milk tea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And currently i m in love with the song
engeyo paartha!(;
Hahas.
I am so naughty coz
i did something i am not supposed to!
lalala....

Are you dating the person you texted
last?
. nopes! Nanthini!
Is it adorable when a boy or a girl calls you " Babe. "?
. Dunno
What do you want right now?
. Chocolate milk tea!
Who was the last person of the
opposite sex you shared a bed with?
. my brother..
What was the last thing you put in
your mouth?
. food
Do you drink milk straight from the
carton?
. nopes
What does your last incoming text
message in your phone say?
- Okay la.
What was the last song you listened to?
. Engeyo paartha
What did you do yesterday?
. Clean my room
What are you excited for?
. ?
What do you want to do when you get
out of secondary school?
. JC!
Have you ever had your heart broken?
. Hmm..
Do you curse?
. No..
What are you currently listening to?
. Engeyo paartha
Do long distance relationships work?
. If it is true love, yesh!
What was the last thing you bought?
. Coke.
Do you use an alarm clock?
. Nope!
What is the next thing you will spend money on?
. Shopping!!!
What is the first thing you notice on
the opposite sex?
. looks.
Is cheating okay?
. No.
Which of your friends do you argue
with most?
. none actually.
Why are you taking this survey?
. BORED!
Are you afraid of the dark?
. no
Who was the last person who told you your problems were going to be okay?
. ?
What are your plans tomorow?
. …
Are you afraid of falling in love?
. dunno
Is there someone who pops into your
mind at random times?
. yesh.
Spell your name without an A, E, F, R,
and S.
. VIN_ _S_
Are you currently in a relationship?
.nopes.
When you are home alone, do you close the door when you shower?
. yesh.
Do you like your life right now?
. Ok..
What was the last thing you drank?
. water
Who was the last person you hugged?
. ?
Do you have any piercings or tattoos?
. 5 piercings on the ear..
What is your opinion on gay marriage?
. dunno
What do you hate?
. Ppl changing a LOT!

really very bored la..

sorry.
i didnt want to do it.
i nvr promise you.
sorry.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.


hahas..
things changed..
i know why people hang onto memories
rather than ppl
cos memories are the only things which dont change,
but people do.
people change a lot over a short span of time..
isn't that sad?
once u knew a person
but the next time u see them, they change,
like A LOT.
& thus the distance between widens..
widens & widens
until both of u are so far apart
u become as if u had nvr known each other be4
then, it's too late, maybe
to think back..
cos once it has drifted away, we cannot grab onto it anymore.
we just have to learn to let go,
even though it is IMPOSSIBLE!
u might be a REASON.
but, i dont want to lose u.
esp after so long..
i dowwan!
NO!
& u have always been there..
i shall see..
we shared everything.
but why werent you there when i cried because we had to leave..
ILY! <3
:)